lake in spring

Conquering Fear After Cancer

I take a deep breath as I stare out across the beautiful blue lake.  The water sparkles in the gentle spring sunshine.  The breeze gently tussles my hair.  The spring scenery is straight out of a postcard but I am nervous.  Today will be my first time scuba diving since being diagnosed with breast cancer …

desert rocks

Processing Anger After Cancer

It is a cool winter morning.  The sky is bright blue and the sun is shining as I do some light house cleaning.  The porch door is open and I hear birds chirping outside.  I feel at peace.  As I straighten some items on the coffee table, my hand accidentally knocks over a small glass …

ornament on tree

A Self Care Christmas

It’s Christmas Eve.  I am curled comfortably under a warm blanket.  The Christmas tree lights are twinkling.  My dog leans pleasantly against me, a living heater.  It is a pleasant morning … yet I am alone.  I am not alone by choice this holiday but by circumstance.  Two weeks ago my husband declared that he …

mountain reflection

Body Image After Cancer

I step out of the shower and stare in the mirror as I do every night.  My eyes are immediately drawn to my mastectomy scars curving under both breasts.  They have faded from their initial angry red, to pink, to a light flesh tone that matches the rest of me.  My breasts are beautiful, it …

ruins

The Frailty of Wealth

We’ve all done it.  Looked at someone else and wished silently that we had what they have.  Maybe it’s a house in a prestigious neighborhood.  Perhaps a flashy car.  Maybe a boat or an exciting vacation or a way living only possible with a hefty price tag.  Or maybe it’s beauty, health, or freedom.  Whatever …