lake in spring

Conquering Fear After Cancer

I take a deep breath as I stare out across the beautiful blue lake.  The water sparkles in the gentle spring sunshine.  The breeze gently tussles my hair.  The spring scenery is straight out of a postcard but I am nervous.  Today will be my first time scuba diving since being diagnosed with breast cancer …

desert rocks

Processing Anger After Cancer

It is a cool winter morning.  The sky is bright blue and the sun is shining as I do some light house cleaning.  The porch door is open and I hear birds chirping outside.  I feel at peace.  As I straighten some items on the coffee table, my hand accidentally knocks over a small glass …

mountain reflection

Body Image After Cancer

I step out of the shower and stare in the mirror as I do every night.  My eyes are immediately drawn to my mastectomy scars curving under both breasts.  They have faded from their initial angry red, to pink, to a light flesh tone that matches the rest of me.  My breasts are beautiful, it …

rainbow over water

I’m OK After Cancer

“Today was a good day,” I think to myself as I pull into my drive way.  It was also a busy day, first as an occupational therapy patient and then as a physician examining patients.  As I walk up the paver path to my front door, wearing scrubs and with protective gear looped over my …

Gratitude After Cancer

It is just minutes after sunrise.  My sneakers pound the creaky boardwalk suspended above the protected dune habitat.  I hear the waves long before I see them.  As I crest the dunes I am met with a peaceful and beautiful view.  The white sand of the beach stretches out before me.  Golden rays of sun …